Every week, we’re participating in #totalhonestytuesday, sharing the things we’d usually keep off of social media, and giving a little more insight into our real (and very un-perfect) lives. Hopefully, in doing this, we can all feel a little less pressure to appear a certain way online, and remember that everyone around us is much more than just the highlight reel we normally see.
#totalhonestytuesday working at my coffee shop today, which is basically on the City College campus. Yesterday was the first day that it was teeming with excited-looking students carrying backpacks and moving boxes, which always brings a huge nostalgia/sadness for me. The truth isn't that I feel sad because I don't have a degree: I'm sad because, as much as I occasionally entertain the idea of going back, I know that I am flat-out not capable of being a student, now or ever. Even when I got good grades, I was always a lazy and irresponsible student, and I don't think I ever would have graduated, even without a job. I'm just not an academic person, and that makes me sad/insecure, because I'd really like to be one.
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My #totalhonestytuesday is about my flight anxiety. If you know me you know my anxiety about flying, generally work myself up into a panic right before the flight takes off. (I mean – it's a tin can floating in the air.) But, I snagged this photo in the moment I realized I had conquered that fear. And that moment was fucking beautiful. #itsthelittlethings
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082316. I had watched too many shows and seen a lot of artists but nothing had made me feel the way Coldplay did. When they started playing "Fix You", I couldn't contain myself and was moved to tears. Maybe it was because of the effect and power the song always has on me. Or maybe it was also because, on the morning of the show, after months of trying to be strong and convincing myself that i could do everything alone, I broke down and cried on my dad's shoulder for the first time. Somehow, no matter how strong we deem ourselves to be, we find ourselves stuck in a hole and all we need to have, to climb out of it, is someone's helping hand. Sometimes, we try to put up with our challenges by ourselves but we sometimes end up struggling on our own. It's not a weakness when we turn to our family, friends, and even God for help. We should realize that we do need their love and support to "fix us", to remind us that we are human, capable of hurting and needing. It's funny how a huge venue filled with thousands of people I don't know and watching this band who I admired all my life, can make me feel so safe and assured that everything's going to be all right again. What more in the arms of my family and friends? That being said, my #ColdplayLA experience was beautiful beyond words. The fireworks, the Xyloband lights, the colorful birds and stars falling from the sky, the bright moon, the energy and kindness of the crowd, The Scientist, the nostalgia, and the genuine love from the band outpoured me with so much love and positive energy that I would never have imagined I could experience in one night. SOBRANG MAGICAL LANG BOW. #AHFODTour @coldplay #totalhonestytuesday
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I'm well on my way toward making my space liveable (and also cute as hell 💁 ✨) but I've got a long way to go and stacks of unfiled papers under my bed (#picturedabove), an overflowing closet and a sink that's always full of dirty dishes I swear I didn't even use. And god it makes me tired. It's not all sunshine and roses- sometimes it's dread and existential crises. #workinonit #totalhonestytuesday #tht
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For @faganchelsea's #totalhonestytuesday… Made myself a gourmet salad for lunch, but paired it with a ramen noodle cup (cause I'm clearly #sofancy). Trying to be debt-free by 2020 means ultra cheap lunches and not going out for food like my coworkers. Trying to pretend like I enjoy it instead of being a sad 🐼.
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This is my very first #totalhonestytuesday. I wrote a post about how I feel turning 30, and was really afraid to post it. The self-doubt and fear leftover from a crazy year had me thinking that my writing wasn't good enough, that I wasn't good anymore. But that's not true, and I know that now. Writing this using my name and not a username is really terrifying, but I'm ready for it. Anyway, don't listen to that voice in your head, because you are enough. And you're great! 🔗in profile. #thisisalmost30 #personalfinance @thefinancialdiet
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#totalhonestytuesday Grad school starts in one week and there are 80 bajillion things I need to get done before then, like finish 2 books, clean out my car, laundry, grocery shopping, 2 different orientations, etc. And instead of doing any of these things I slept until 1 in the afternoon. Sigh.
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First #totalhonestytuesday in a while: shopping for shoes for a wedding I'm going to this weekend has left me self-conscious about my big feet, because hardly any stores in Spain carry larger than a women's 38-39 (US 8-9). It's always embarrassing having to ask the attendant (in my obvious foreign accent, at that) for a 41-42 knowing they won't have it. Wishing I was blessed with the cute, tiny feet all Spanish women seem to have 😔👠
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ya know what i'm really good at? wasting money on takeout for lunch at work. ya know what i'm also really good at? turning super cheap pantry and fridge staples into filling meals for a ridiculously small fraction of the price of takeout. clearer heads and better choices prevailed this week. #totalhonestytuesday
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🙏🏽🖋💚💙 #totalhonestytuesday I know that your twenties are the most volatile and in-flux years of life and that everyone is on the shaky ground, where some days are extra shaky and you're teetering while other days you find yourself on all fours on the ground. It's the beginning of my last year in the grad program and looking back a year, I've made it. Through the unbearable moments where I doubted everything I ever did academically as well as personally, I can take a step back and say "parentals, I made it: you have a daughter who will be graduating with a professional degree." I haven't graduated yet, but I can feel it. Of course, I still feel like something is missing and my habit is to search the streets of Nostalgia, in case it's hiding there – whatever "it" is. But for this moment, I'm basking in being here now, letting the love in.
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Nothing warms my Type-A heart like a new planner + a quality inspirational print from @ninjandninj (courtesy of @ladannikravan's giveaway). Excuse me while I spend two hours filling it out. 😂 . . . #totalhonestytuesday #ninjandninj #makeshithappen #flashesofdelight #typeA #plannerjunkie #organized #backtoschool #inspiration
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